Meh

Another emo post. I've used this handy website for myself. I don't really do friends cuts. I just check my list of friends and when I have absolutley no idea why I'm friends with someone I'll delte them. I probably should inform people of this but I don't because I'm a coward. 

But I like to check whether someone defriended me so I can defriend them too instead of worrying why they never seem to comment or use their journal. It's a bit too hard to do manually and this website has been a great help. Now the stalkees it lists are the people I've friended who haven't friended me back. It's quiet some people but I know why I follow these people and why they don't follow me and I don't mind. But today I saw someone on it that friended me from a friending meme and never told me they had defriended me. In fact I've been talking about them as my friend sometimes and defending them. Not that they don't deserve to be defended just because they didn't want to be my friend anymore.

I can see that my journal entries aren't for everyone. I just barley had a conversation with this person though because they only commented on my journal once. So there wasn't any time for them to get to know me really. I'll see them around since we're in a lot of same comms but of course I'll never say anything. I've also been feeling guilty about some of the people I lost as friends on lj which were really just two and one was mutually agreed and the other I don't want to talk about. Well I guess the person who defriended me could have gotten to know me through my entries and not liked what they saw. Totally okay. It was just a bit of a suprise since it never happened to me that someone defriended me and I didn't know for god knows how long.

The thing is, despite this bringing me down feel free to de-friend me and not drop a note. It hurts less that way and what good explantion for de-friending is there? I'd encourage all my friends to look into this even if people who don't post a lot but who you aren't really friends with don't clutter up your friends list they can still read the entries. I always like to check who de-friended me to avoid commenting on someone's journal when they don't want me to.

Also if I have de-friended you (that's why I'm gonna post this public) it's nothing personal. If I really couldn't stand you and didn't want to see you ever again I would block you be sure of that. Please don't be sad like me. If you want to be friends again or I somehow managed to forget why we're friends and it's really important drop me a note here. And if not de-friend me so we have that out of the way.

Tl;dr: If I have de-friended you it's not personal. You probably haven't noticed that's why I'm telling you. I'm sorry for not giving a better reason than: "I have no idea where we know each other from anymore and I don't feel like we have anything to talk about." Please, please don't be mad at me or be sad. I want everyone to feel free to defriend me now if they want to. Whether I have defriended you or we're still friends. If you have been thinking about it do it or talk to me about it. It might hurt but it's easier than this. And if I have defriended you talk to me if you're unclear or I just forgot how close we were etc.

Of course I'd prefer this to go quietly but I can't expect that so feel free to talk to me. But again please don't be mad or insulting. Even if you think I deserve it.

Nobody is getting defriended this is not a friends cut in the normal sense.

I will check the website again after this post so I'll see who I have to defriend so if you just want to be done with it you don't have to comment. Oh and also I don't want anyone to take this lightly because I haven't commented that much on their journal or vice versa but I'm not forcing anyone to be my lj friend. Thank you.